Back on Track

This past week I was determined to get myself back on track. I hadn't seen the scale move in a while and was tired of no results so I focused and started to track everything I ate. This helped me tremendously and I also started to walk every night. First night I walked a mile and the next night was up to 3 miles.

I got results from staying on track. I lost 8 lbs this week! I did not cheat and have any junk to eat. I ate more protein and got more water in. I walked and tracked all my food, staying around 1200 calories a day.

I am so happy to have lost this weight!!

Discouraged Again

I hate to sound like a whiner which I know gets annoying but I am just so frustrated with my weight loss. I know a lot of it is my fault, I am falling into old habits, but I just get so hungry now!

I finally got under 200 lbs but the scale bounces now between 200 and 199.2 lbs. I know that it's almost that time of month which always makes the scale go up for me and I eat like a pig then too, but it's no consolation! I have 40-50 more pounds to lose before my goal. Right now I'd be happy losing 20 more lol.

I see so many others who are just melting their weight off so fast. Mine started out fast then slowed right down to less than a crawl! I got so discouraged about it today I had a piece of cake for breakfast which is real bad. Usually I have a protein shake. What gets to me most though is even when I do eat very good I don't seem to lose like I should.

I am still in a size 16 and would love to get down to a 14 in the next month. I was exercising like crazy and all I got for it was 1 pound lost! I feel smaller but can't get into that next size yet....

I was considering two things this morning....Weight Watchers (which probably wouldn't help) or starting to smoke again to replace food (not gonna happen!) That is how stressed I am about all this.

I am going to try to cut out all junk for the next week and see if that makes a difference, carbs included. I'll let you know how that goes....

ONDERLAND!!!!!!!!

Finally I did it! I hit Onderland! Which means I am below 200 lbs finally!!!

I hit a plateau in early March that was so frustrating and discouraging, going up and down a few pounds and never getting below 200 lbs. I wanted so bad to hit Onderland by my 40th birthday on April 27 but it didn't happen so I was depressed about it all. I seriously thought I was done my weight loss journey. This was the mother of all plateaus I tell ya!

So, all week I was at 200.4 lbs and I was giving up. I was doing my Wii Fit, that I bought about a month ago, every day religiously. Jogging anywhere from 1-3 miles and doing strength and aerobics exercises. I really couldn't break through my stall.

Last night I got called in to work and was eating some chicken nuggets and had some coke so I thought for sure my weight would be up this morning. My body was all achy and sore and I got on the scale, dreading what it would say.........


199.8 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I thought it was a mistake so I got off the scale then back on, but it still said 199.8 lbs! I stayed off for an hour and tried again, the same! Weeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

Finally, I hit my biggest goal yet! I was excited to hit the Century Club (100 lbs lost) but my biggest goal were to be below 200 lbs (something I haven't been in 17 years) and my next is to hit goal...49 lbs to go now!

I have now lost 109 lbs in 9 months!

I LOVE MY RNY!!!!!!!

My Weight Loss Chart

This might be long but this is my chart/progress since May of 2008 when I first got approved for surgery until my most recent weigh-in..........It starts with my most recent so you might want to start from the bottom and go up.

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Date
Weight
1
04/10/2009
201.4
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2
04/09/2009
201.8
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3
04/06/2009
203.2
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4
03/20/2009
203.6
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5
03/17/2009
204.2
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6
03/16/2009
205.0
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7
03/14/2009
206.6
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8
03/13/2009
207.0
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9
03/08/2009
207.4
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10
02/21/2009
208.6
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11
02/19/2009
209.8
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12
02/15/2009
210.4
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13
02/13/2009
211.0
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14
02/11/2009
213.0
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15
02/10/2009
213.6
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16
02/07/2009
214.2
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17
02/05/2009
215.2
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18
01/24/2009
215.6
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19
01/20/2009
217.4
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20
01/18/2009
217.6
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21
01/16/2009
218.4
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22
01/15/2009
219.6
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23
01/11/2009
220.1
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24
01/10/2009
221.4
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25
12/31/2008
221.6
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26
12/29/2008
222.4
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27
12/28/2008
224.4
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28
12/26/2008
226.2
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29
12/20/2008
227.2
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30
12/14/2008
228.4
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31
12/13/2008
228.6
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32
12/11/2008
229.2
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33
12/01/2008
230.6
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34
11/30/2008
231.2
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35
11/29/2008
232.8
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36
11/27/2008
233.0
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37
11/25/2008
233.4
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38
11/21/2008
233.4
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39
11/16/2008
237.2
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40
11/12/2008
238.6
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41
11/11/2008
239.0
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42
11/01/2008
239.0
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43
10/30/2008
241.0
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44
10/26/2008
243.4
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45
10/11/2008
245.4
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46
10/07/2008
247.6
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47
10/06/2008
249.2
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48
10/05/2008
251.8
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49
09/28/2008
252.4
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50
09/25/2008
258.6
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51
09/24/2008
259.0
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52
09/20/2008
259.2
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53
09/19/2008
260.4
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54
09/17/2008
261.4
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55
09/15/2008
262.0
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56
09/14/2008
263.2
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57
09/11/2008
264.0
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58
09/10/2008
265.4
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59
09/06/2008
266.6
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60
09/03/2008
267.0
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61
09/01/2008
267.2
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62
08/30/2008
268.0
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63
08/29/2008
270.0
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64
08/28/2008
270.6
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65
08/26/2008
272.0
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66
08/25/2008
272.2
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67
08/23/2008
272.8
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68
08/21/2008
273.2
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69
08/19/2008
275.0
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70
08/18/2008
275.8
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71
08/17/2008
277.2
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72
08/08/2008
299.2
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73
08/05/2008
308.6
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74
07/25/2008
301.8
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75
06/17/2008
301.4
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76
06/16/2008
302.4
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77
05/15/2008
306.4
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Frustrated!

Here I am at 8.5 months after surgery and I am in a huge stall that is driving me crazy. Want to know exactly why it is driving me crazy?? I can't get below 200 lbs! Grrrrrrrrr!

I have gone as low as 201 lbs then bounce back up to 204 or even 207 lbs before coming back down a bit but never below 200 lbs! I want so bad to be in Onderland before my 40th birthday which is the end of this month (April 27).

I am hoping this isn't the end of the line. That my weight loss has stopped. I feel great, feel thin but I still see myself as fat when I see pics of myself, even when others tell me I look great....

I tried the 5 day pouch test but ended up not finishing it. Lost a couple of pounds then back up they went. I don't get it! I know I've been eating more carbs which is bad but it still shouldn't stop my weight loss!

Sometimes I wonder if I am just destined to fail....

My post on OH about losing 100 lbs

I just wanted to add to my last post I made about losing 100 lbs in 6 months from surgery. I am pasting the post I made on obesityhelp.com so you can see all the wow moments I have had in the past 6 months.....

*I can't believe it!! It's been an awesome past 6 months since my surgery but this whole time I couldn't wait to hit that 100 lbs lost point and now I've done it! I had just called my mom and was laughing about how I was .8 lbs away and seemed to be losing ounces not lbs to get there. Then I went to get in the shower and got on the scale and there it was! I almost screamed lol. I am 208.6 lbs now, down from 308.6 lbs only 6 months ago.

The last time I was down this much was 10 years ago this month when I had my back surgery and needed to lose 20 lbs for that surgery. Now my next big goal will be to get below 200 lbs and I want to reach that before I turn 40 on April 27th. I think I will get there no problem lol. I haven't been below 200 lbs for 16 years!

There have been frustrating stalls along the way but I've learned to get along with those stalls lol. I know my body is readjusting with each stall and I still lose inches or I can almost see the weight getting redistributed all over. I feel alive again and so full of energy!

I wanted to list some of my "WOW!" moments that I've experienced in the past six months so sorry if this post gets a bit long lol.....

- I can now fit into the bathtub to take my beloved bubble baths without getting stuck or wedged, I actually have room around me now and my butt bones hurt on the hard bottom lol

- I can shave my legs without having to turn myself into a pretzel, almost drowning myself in the tub

- I can see certain body parts that I had almost forgotten were there lol

- I can cross my legs, not just putting my ankle across my knee but actually cross them fully! I don't have to grab my leg and pull it up to do it either lol AND I can cross them both ways, not just one leg, I can switch legs with ease lol

- I can walk through the mall or park near the back of a parking lot and not be out of breath walking. I can walk quite a distance and not get tired or need rests. I even run!!

- Sex is better than ever!!!

- I have boobs again lol! Before they sat on my big old tummy but now...DAMN they look good and perky still lol, maybe not as firm but I haven't lost anything there so far, still a 44D lol and my bf keeps reminding me how good they look lol

- I showed my kids that I can still do the splits, couldn't do that a few months ago

- I am so full of energy I have a hard time sleeping at night now, I wake up after sleeping a few hours and I am raring to go

- I am always cold now as opposed to always hot

- Very little loose skin so far!

- I am in a size 16 pants and large top, I don't shop at Pennington's anymore but I picked up some tight size large rock t-shirts and they look good on me!

- My butt looks awesome again (back in school days I was voted by the guys as having the best butt in school lol)

- I can paint my toenails with ease!

- I actually like to exercise!

- I don't dump so I still get to eat whatever I want BUT my tastes have changed so that chocolate and pop and other bad, sugary foods don't appeal to me like they used to

- I can eat almost a whole cheeseburger from a fast food restaurant although I have to do it slowly lol

- I feel sexy and desirable again

- I get checked out by men again

- people hold doors open for me or strike up convos with me again, I'm not "invisible" anymore

- My shoes are now too big for me, as is my jewellery and hats

- I can sleep on my tummy

- sleeping on my back I don't get choked by neck fat or cleavage now

- I can fit, with room to spare, through turnstiles

- I can work long shifts and not have sore feet from standing so long

- I can squeeze by people in tight spaces and not hit them with my tummy or butt lol

- I can fit in theatre seats!

- All seat belts fit around me now

- I don't need help putting on socks and shoes anymore!

- numbness in thigh due to back injury and surgery 10 years ago is now gone!

- my back doesn't hurt hardly at all anymore (bad back and disk removed)

- my self confidence is sky-high!

I am sure there are so many more that I can think of if I try really hard but I don't want this post getting too long lol.

Anyways, thank you so much to all of you for your support and inspiration and to all my friends at the Windsor Weight Loss Surgery Support Group. I can't wait to hit my next goal and finally my end goal. I feel it's so within reach now that I can definitely do it!

Finally..................I LOVE MY RNY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *

In The Century Club! 100 LBS Gone Forever!!

Well, it has been 6.5 months since I had my RNY gastric bypass surgery and as of today I have lost 100 lbs!!!!! I am so psyched!!

I can't believe how good I feel, how sexy I feel and how free I feel! I can do so much more than I have in years and I feel alive for the first time in at least 10 years!

I don't feel that I have given up a whole lot. I don't "dump" from eating sugar or fats and when I do eat those things I find I actually lose more lol. I can eat somewhat normally, not having my portions restricted too much. Of course I can't eat 2nd or third portions anymore and eat probably half to 2/3 of a real portion but I don't feel like I am deprived at all.

I can't believe I've lost 100 lbs in 6 months and hit my first big goal. My next goal I wanted to reach by my birthday on April 27, 2009...which is to be below 200 lbs. I am 208.6 as of today so I think I will reach that goal no problem!