Thursday, May 28, 2009

Discouraged Again

I hate to sound like a whiner which I know gets annoying but I am just so frustrated with my weight loss. I know a lot of it is my fault, I am falling into old habits, but I just get so hungry now!

I finally got under 200 lbs but the scale bounces now between 200 and 199.2 lbs. I know that it's almost that time of month which always makes the scale go up for me and I eat like a pig then too, but it's no consolation! I have 40-50 more pounds to lose before my goal. Right now I'd be happy losing 20 more lol.

I see so many others who are just melting their weight off so fast. Mine started out fast then slowed right down to less than a crawl! I got so discouraged about it today I had a piece of cake for breakfast which is real bad. Usually I have a protein shake. What gets to me most though is even when I do eat very good I don't seem to lose like I should.

I am still in a size 16 and would love to get down to a 14 in the next month. I was exercising like crazy and all I got for it was 1 pound lost! I feel smaller but can't get into that next size yet....

I was considering two things this morning....Weight Watchers (which probably wouldn't help) or starting to smoke again to replace food (not gonna happen!) That is how stressed I am about all this.

I am going to try to cut out all junk for the next week and see if that makes a difference, carbs included. I'll let you know how that goes....

Sunday, May 17, 2009


Finally I did it! I hit Onderland! Which means I am below 200 lbs finally!!!

I hit a plateau in early March that was so frustrating and discouraging, going up and down a few pounds and never getting below 200 lbs. I wanted so bad to hit Onderland by my 40th birthday on April 27 but it didn't happen so I was depressed about it all. I seriously thought I was done my weight loss journey. This was the mother of all plateaus I tell ya!

So, all week I was at 200.4 lbs and I was giving up. I was doing my Wii Fit, that I bought about a month ago, every day religiously. Jogging anywhere from 1-3 miles and doing strength and aerobics exercises. I really couldn't break through my stall.

Last night I got called in to work and was eating some chicken nuggets and had some coke so I thought for sure my weight would be up this morning. My body was all achy and sore and I got on the scale, dreading what it would say.........

199.8 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I thought it was a mistake so I got off the scale then back on, but it still said 199.8 lbs! I stayed off for an hour and tried again, the same! Weeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!

Finally, I hit my biggest goal yet! I was excited to hit the Century Club (100 lbs lost) but my biggest goal were to be below 200 lbs (something I haven't been in 17 years) and my next is to hit goal...49 lbs to go now!

I have now lost 109 lbs in 9 months!

I LOVE MY RNY!!!!!!!